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Hey love,

I hesitated about sending this, in case you’re thinking this is a sign that I’m already asking to have an affair (what?) but after I read the whole thing, I just think it’s so interesting. I love stuff like this – smart, thoughtful people, all discussing love and culture and relationships and how things are changing (or staying the same). Anyway, it’s not a quick read but it’s not super long either – whenever you have a few minutes. Check it out!







I really like this one: http://tinybuddha.com/blog/4-simple-steps-to-freedom/

freedom from fear and worry and self-imposed impression and sw(h)irl of thoughts and inaction/procrastination takes work! but it can be really fun work. engaging together 🙂

am hoping my ankle is well enough to bike at your parents’ place. do i need to bring a helmet? can’t believe it’s only 10 days away!! so pumped. like a bicycle tire. ooh, that was a bad one 😉

okay okay sleepytime. had fun with brian and sheila and their friend jill tonight. she is doing long-distance with a boyfriend in san fran, and it’s tough sounds like. so excited to be present with you, and glad it’s for a long-ish chunk there, and then even LONGER here. yes! and fun fam travels ahead. but, am staying in the present. breathe in, breathe out.

sleep well and mucho love. how are the paragraphs? oh! i heard this community/site is great and their listserve has tons of great stuff: http://www.yepdc.org/join.html

Ahh! and I just ran across this: http://allthingszilla.wordpress.com/2010/07/page/2/ Did you know Bret? He’s in my thesis film. I was his head sponsor when he was a sponsor. He went to Berkeley High School and made a really funny movie and really fun music album all in high school, both of which I haven’t seen eclipsed on small scale humor. Does’t make sense I? Anyway, I haven’t read too much of the blog but first glance looks good.

gonna meditate meself to sleep. three day week ahead. then three day weekend. then four day week. then 9 days and nights in northern California contigo. life is so good.


Thoughts, love?




I know you have lots to do besides read my articles and listen to my songs….only if you have a moment!

Looking at pictures of us this morning makes me really happy. I’m so excited to see you.


Do you like them too? 🙂

Off to shower and salsa!




Hello You! Today is July 2, which means we only have 12 more days until I pick you up at the Oakland airport and take you home for a wonderful week in the Bay. So excited. 😀

Check out this article, when you have a sec: http://tinybuddha.com/blog/set-yourself-free-3-ideas-to-become-more-conscious/

Here’s what I want to remember, speaks to some of what we’ve talked about too:

A life that is lived unconsciously becomes blunted and gray. It is lived in a repetitive cycle that becomes increasingly harder to break out of the older we get. It requires the ability to allow yourself to become a little bit uncomfortable from time to time, and as our era of convenience rages on, it’s becoming harder and harder for people to do.

Consciousness is about awareness: being alert to details, being in the moment, and most of all, simply being awake! Like everything else, it is something that is learned. It’s a habit we get into.

There are many different ways to awaken consciousness. Here are some of my personal favorites:


One of the main reasons why we are able to live unconsciously is because the element of fear has mostly been eliminated from our day to day existences.

How comfortable is your life exactly? If there’s nothing that challenges you, nothing that causes even the slightest bit of fear or trepidation, you are probably living underneath the surface of your life.

Challenge yourself. Do something out of the box. Take up white water rafting or mountain climbing. Sports are great for being in the moment, and the fear of losing the game is what drives you forward.


Traveling changes your basic viewing process. It rips you out of your head and your agenda and forces you to just focus on the world around you again.

After a while your expectations slowly drop away. Things expand. You’re not the center of the universe anymore. You become part of the world instead of a little bubble floating along in it.

Travel requires you to be a little bit vulnerable. You have to face numerous fears about being in a new place, not knowing where to go or what will happen next. You have to put yourself out there and trust that everything will be OK.


This is the most well-known way to cleanse and awaken the mind, and yet many people shy away from it. Meditation doesn’t have to happen alone in a quiet room.

My personal favorite form of meditation is action netball. When I’m on the court everything else just falls away and I become completely present and aware of only one thing: the ball! By the time the game finishes I’m exhausted and humming in a cleaned out sort of way. It’s beautiful.

Being conscious and aware is about opening your eyes to the world again, looking outside of yourself instead of always leaning into your own interior world. Step out of your bubble of existence and really take a good hard look at the world around you again. What do you see? Can you look at it without an agenda, without a preconceived idea in your head?

Freedom really is all up in your head. You have built your own cage and the keys are in your pocket.

No one can make you think a certain way. You have the power to change your own experience of the world if you can let go of your own preconceived storyline and allow the world to unfold around you.

We truly are our own keepers.



What I’m reading today:




It’s drippy, and gray. I have lots to grade, which I suppose is ok; not much else to do anyway with Katie in Belize and the weather as it is, and exercise on hold. My energy’s down again today – not quite as much as yesterday, but still down. It’s strange not knowing what’s going on with my body. I was barely hungry for lunch today – I was hungry all through making it, but when I finally sat down to eat it, I almost had to force myself to eat. I wonder if I’m getting a little too used to blended foods….my smoothie was SO good this morning! Best in a while. Really fresh, ripe fruit: mango, kiwi, and a new one that’s from around here called a chicozapote:

I added chia seeds and shredded coconut and water and it was DELICIOUS.

If you have time to read any of the above articles, I’d love your thoughts/reactions.


Up late. Not sure yet, but it could be a rather late night. I’m working on my Pecha Kucha for Habla: http://www.pecha-kucha.org/

Not really feeling it – haven’t hit the sweet spot, not sure if it’s going to come. I forgot your mom and Bill were coming today! I was thinking tomorrow. How cool to have them there. I like imagining all of you, plus the cats, in your space. And moving!! So exciting! I wish I were there to help, to see the new place, to ‘christen’ it with you. 🙂

Thank you for your thoughts on frustration, love. I love being able to share things like that with you, things I’m not proud of. And hear your thoughtful, reflective response. Wish I could just meditate on that instead of this rubbish pecha whatever-kucha! Honestly the person I’m the most wanting to ‘impress’ is my sister, cause she’ll be there watching. The rest of the group – whatever. We all know each other, we all know how busy we all are and this thing is a little added bonus, a little unpaid work that we are all agreeing to do….why? Out of the idealism in our hearts, out of not wanting to let Kurt and Marimar down. Maybe it’ll be helpful, useful even, in the end. As long as I get some sleep tonight. Ok, back to work…


PS: Craving sweets. Haven’t felt this much on the ED or Cleanse, but now that it’s late, and it’s going to be much later soon, I’m craving chocolate, and sugar. Doesn’t help I just spent awhile looking at this website: http://coconutbliss.com/coconut-bliss-products/chocolate-hazelnut-fudge Is this brand of coconut ice cream available in DC? I don’t remember. On their website it sounds like it’s west coast? Well at least you have that other brand….have you been indulging since the cleanse started or no? ok back to work!!


I couldn’t figure out how to add a photo to a comment so i put the pic of mom and bill here: